lately i have had no life.
strangely enough, im ok with it.
and all i want to do is paint.
but it's a lot of effort to do so,
so i lie to my self and say no,
just get on your blog, be normal, try to be as cool as you can.
that never really works out for me.
and then when i sometimes give out my blog address i blush of embarrassment.
why do i have this thing?
no one actually cares as to what i have or don't have to say about me.
and my life.
so maybe i should talk about other peoples lives. eh?

Lizzie has a super cute dog named Archie. [im assuming that is the correct spelling]
and i became more attached to that dog over my own.
why?

is life over yet?



Sarah Janelle.

Daffy.. im ready to sacrifice for you..


school : 6 am.. here i come..

with a frown about how early it will be.


meh.



Sarah Janelle.

For Jane.

my heart broke for you.


it was me. my mistakes.
the unconscious brakes
stopped me from the girl 
with the pearls.

We laughed and trusted.
but now..it is has rusted.
my silent cry wails for her.
i want to see but it is all a blur.

the girl who inspired me.
i want us to be three.
i am a terrible friend
i was not trying to offend.

the walk of our relationship,
may have been just round trip.
but please lets makes it last til the end.
my time was not misspent.

dear you,
forgive me, and see through.
i will try my best,
to keep you in my treasure chest.


[i think you know who you are.. please forgive me... i do not deserve your friendship or your time..
but i want and crave it like i crave air. I'm sorry and please know i love you!]

Sarah Janelle.

goodie.


im have once again fallen asleep on the computer table in absolute boredom and irritation with my homework.

here is a little story i found... please enjoy.



I did not provoke the fight, so I feel no remorse for what I was forced to do. We were arguing, and since I was right and he was wrong, he decided to fight to cover his stupidity.

He swung at me first, but because I was in top physical condition, I was able to act quickly and block the punch neatly with my head.

I then jumped to the ground, knocking him down on top of me. I placed my ear in his mouth and poked his finger several times with my eye.

His teeth hurt so much from the strength of my ear that he became irate and tried to kick me, but I cleverly blocked the onslaught with my ribs and face.

I scrambled to my feet and ran to my car in hopes I would get away and save this man from my deadly hands. Before I could start the car he pulled me from the still open door. I then proceeded to swing at him, but only managed to hit myself in the head.

To this I said, “What’s this two against one?” That was the final straw—I lost all control. There will be no mercy!!

Taking him in my death grip, I pounded him in the knee with my stomach—then I hit him two or three times in the fist with my teeth! He had had it! I could tell. After that he didn’t even try to pick me up off the ground. He was too chicken!!

haha.. classy no? 

dont cry because it's over, smile because it happened.

Sarah Janelle.

Lost again.

As I quickly glance at the picture,
I know I have to look away,
Before I feel too much pain.

Night after night,
the tears fall,
making a river,
to float down in.

I take my boat,
down my teary river,
and remember our journey.

When we were together,
I would glow
but change comes
my world is murky.

it's too dark to see,
I wonder through my life,
wishing I was free.

I trip and fall,
my soul is shattered
all I can do is cry,
and want for help.

So many days,
I feel lost.
I need a light
to guide me home.

I will forever be lost without you.

Sarah Janelle

Crying silently.

I was left behind,

Forgotten about.

I sat quietly waiting,

Hoping that someone would remember.

I now felt as small as a spec of dust,

Praying no one would blow me away.

I used to control my life,

But now someone else is.

I was never noticed,

When I asked for help.

Instead I was walked by,

Brushed off to the side.

I felt alone,

But my heart told me I wasn’t.

There was no one with me,

No one to comfort me.

My mind said, no one cares about you,

But my heart said otherwise.

I was left behind,

Forgotten about.

I sat quietly,

Hoping that someone would remember,

I cried silently,

My heart was shattered.

I searched for love,

But was always lost.

I stared for hours gazing at the moon,

Jealous of all its companions.

As I felt dead,

I knew I was alive.

There had to be more to life,

But for me there was nothing.

Life wasn’t meant to be painful,

Or heartbreaking.

I t was meant to have laughing,

And love.

I prayed that night,

Praying to God.

I wasn’t going to give up,

Not this time.

I cried mutely,

For my lost life.

lost again.

Sarah Janelle.